3 Things You Might Need to Teach Yourself if You Had a Narcissistic Parent

In the interests of transparency (and avoiding a slap in the face), I do not have a narcissistic parent.

But just like the rest of us, I have experienced narcissistic individuals. Plus, I know a woman that has a narcissistic mother. And it is through her honest sharing that I have come to understand how this affects a person.

Now in her early twenties, my friend, (we’ll call her Warrior Girl) is knee deep in the painful process of unraveling the effects of her narcissistic parent – her mother – on her life.

The insights below are based on the insights from my Warrior Girl, and on the wisdom of the brilliant book and necessary reading for any child of a narcissistic parent (CNP), Will I Ever Be Good Enough?: Healing the Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers.

First, let’s identify whether this could have been an issue for you.

narcissism = arrogantly self-absorbed 


Naming narcissism can be a relief of itself, because it is an acknowledgment that what occurred in your parenting wasn’t normal.

In everyday terms, a narcissist is someone who is arrogantly self-absorbed. Its opposite is self-love and self-esteem; having a healthy appreciation for yourself that does not stop you from loving others.

9 traits of a narcissist 


The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders describes narcissism as a personality disorder classified by the below nine traits. In reality, we all have some of these traits. But the presence of loads of them is a key giveaway of a narcissistic parent. 

The nine traits:

  1. a grandiose sense of self importance. A narcissist may exaggerate talents and achievements, and is expectant of undue recognition. 
  2. there is a preoccupation with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty or ideal love. 
  3. the belief that he or she is special and unique, and can only be understood by other special people. 
  4. requiring excessive admiration. 
  5. having a sense of entitlement and unreasonable expectations of favorable treatment or automatic compliance with expectations. 
  6. takes advantage of others.
  7. lacks empathy. 
  8. often envious of others or believes others are envious. 
  9. shows arrogance and haughtiness. 

In her book, Karyl McBride gives a questionnaire that can help you to identify whether your mother has narcissistic traits.

3 things you might need to teach yourself as a CNP


Even the most well intentioned parents can wind up bringing up self-entitled, insecure kids due to failed parenting strategies. It is a rare soul among us that does not have some work to do around learning to love and accept ourselves. 

However, there are struggles specific to children of narcissists; fallouts that flow inevitably from the gaping holes that ignoring or engulfing mothers and fathers leave. 

Here are three things you’ll likely need to work on if you’re a CNP, and do not want the legacy of your narcissistic parent to continue to play out in your life. 

how to grieve


For CNPs, part of the healing has to include grieving for the loss of the parent they wanted, as well as the child that went without.

It is understood that there are five stages of grief: acceptance, denial, bargaining, anger and depression. And it’s the first, acceptance, that is the most critical. 

What acceptance means in this context is embracing the knowledge that you had a narcissistic parent and all of the ways that has hindered (or helped) you in life. Also, being present to all of your emotions about it.

This is a tough pill to swallow. However, that is exactly what CNPs must do if they do not want to continue to be defined by their narcissistic parent. 

How do we learn to accept difficult realities? 

In my experience, it is a decision we need to make every day – and sometimes moment-to-moment. It is staying present to the reasonable urge to blame, hate and self pity, noticing how that makes us feel, and reaching for better feeling thoughts.

You can think of your own better feeling thoughts. For me, they would probably look something like:

  • ‘This has been a part of my past, but doesn’t need to be a part of my future.’
  • ‘Dealing with her/him has helped be to become the person I am now, and I love who I am now.’
  • ‘What happened to me wasn’t fair, and I don’t owe forgiveness to anyone, except myself.’
  • ‘This suffering is helping me to learn to open my heart and live wholeheartedly. That’s something that other people never learn.’

As well as grieving for the mothers or fathers they never had, CNPs must grieve for the child they weren’t allowed to be. This ‘retrospective parenting’ would be a part of the approach that many therapists would take to supporting a recovering CNP. 

how to develop and accept your own identity

Narcissistic parents seek to subsume your identity into theirs. It’s all about them. Consequently, CNPs miss out on the healthy development of a child, where their curiosities and talents are nurtured. 

How do we learn who we are?

In his book The Search for the Real Self, James Masterson describes the key capacities of the real self as follows:

  • capacity to experience a wide range of feelings deeply with liveliness, joy, vigor, excitement and spontaneity.
  • ability to accept appropriate entitlements. 
  • capacity for self activation and assertion.
  • acknowledgment of self-esteem.
  • ability to soothe painful feelings.
  • capacity to make and stick to commitments.
  • ability to be creative.
  • capacity to be intimate.
  • ability to be alone.
  • continuity of self (authenticity across a range of experiences). 

CNPs might find themselves with a lot of work to do on realizing these traits in themselves. Actually, we all do. The key things are being with emotions, practicing self-love, building self-esteem, and learning to be alone

There are a few further issues that CNPs probably struggle with to do with self identity: 

acknowledging yourself


Part of developing our identities happens in learning to value ourselves. This is a well known struggle of the CNP. 

You might appear to the world like a complete hero, but never give yourself due credit. Also, you may continuously struggle with feeling inadequate. In her book, Karyle calls this type of CNP a ‘Mary Marvel’. With such CNPs, there is this crazy discrepancy between how the rest of the world sees them and how they see themselves. 

This is just something to bring your awareness to as a CNP. Self acknowledgment and congratulation is fundamental to becoming internally self-validating. 

asking for what you need- and say no to what you don’t


CNPs are likely to have issues with knowing and asserting their boundaries. That is because the proper dividing line between adult and child was never established.

As adults, CNPs may infuse their poor sense of boundaries into all of their relationships. The result is anxiety, uncertainty, hurt and frustration as they struggle to know what’s within their responsibility. 

Paradoxically, taking responsibility for our own emotions, rather than projecting our hurts onto others, is what helps here. That is how we begin to know what’s within our remit and what isn’t. 

resisting the urge to overcompensate


Understandably wanting to avoid having the traits of the narcissistic parent, some CNPs overcompensate by becoming the opposite. But any extremes bring us out of balance. 

Having some entitlement, and even being a little demanding are attributes of a secure individual. It is okay to be a little dependent at times. 

So how to not fall into the trip of overcompensating?

If you find yourself behaving in a passive, meek, quiet and non assertive manner, question whether that is serving your highest interests. Work to notice when you could be being more self expressed. And use assertive friends to model that for you if needed. 

Otherwise, traits expressed by your narcissistic parent can wind up in your Shadow, blocking creative energy expression and power. Work to bring those aspects of you into the light. 

how to select secure romantic partners


Romantic relationships is an area for which the legacy of the narcissistic parent can be the most apparent.

Typically, children of narcissists will unconsciously choose partners who they know cannot meet their emotional needs. We’re all attracted to what’s familiar. For CNPs, that is people that will hurt them and ignore their needs.

Healthy relationships are based on interdependence. CNPs risk creating codependent relationships that aren’t based on choice and love, but rather upon acting out roles. They are likely to form either an anxious or an avoidant attachment style

We learn to select more secure romantic partners by doing the work to know ourselves (above). In addition, CNPs need to observe how they behave with potential partners.

You can stop yourself from entering into a codependent situation and come to recognise, and be attracted to, only secure mates. 

summary – gifts of a narcissistic parent?


As Warrior Girl often observes, acceptance is the key. Truly accepting that you had a narcissistic parent and all of the various effects on your life. 

Although Warrior Girl’s awareness of it isn’t always front and center, it is blindingly obvious to me the amazingly positive traits that she has developed in response to dealing with the pain of her narcissistic mother. The uncommon levels of courage, self awareness and unflinching self honesty. 

I’ve also observed how the experience is already enabling her to make a difference to other people on healing journeys. And although that is not something she wants to focus on right now, in future, who knows? This might be a big chunk of her very own access to changing the world. 

But we have to put our own happiness first. And many CNPs may have their work cut out. But with self awareness and dedication, that is completely possible.